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03 April 2009 @ 04:01 pm

I know it's been an eternity since my last entry but I just had to say this.... IOWA YOU ARE AWESOME!

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03 December 2008 @ 05:17 pm
It's been a while....

I am 10 weeks pregnant (excited. nervous, terrified all wrapped into one). I had a doctor's appointment today and I heard the heartbeat. It was 160 BPM and very strong. I got a little teary hearing this sound coming from inside me that isn't me.

We've decided on names:

Ava Noelle for a girl and Aidan Michael for a boy.

 
 
playitloud03
08 October 2008 @ 07:32 am

I realized during last night's debate just how scary John McCain can be.

First, referring to your opponent (a United States Senator just like you) as "that one" is not a good idea. It's like the cranky old man that we all have in our neighborhoods growing up who calls the police when kids play on his lawn.

Officer:     "Which child was trespassing on your property?"
McCain:    "That one"

Second, is anyone else as horrified by his spending freeze on everything but defense as I am? Besides the fact that I have not heard McCain utter one word about education during the entire campaign his spending freeze would further cripple the public education system in this country. How can we expect our children and - by extension- our country to be competitive in this global economy if we can not catch up to other countries academically. Public education is an issue of national security but I don't think he wants to see that. How can our children be expected to design the green technology  of the future or the defense technology that will defend our country
against a new enemy if our schools do not meet those needs. And before someone throws the voucher argument in my face, I spent six years in a religious private school where the educational content is nowhere close to what I got in public schools. This presents a problem since most american private schools are faith-based institutions.

While the spending freeze is dangerous on so many levels, education is the first thing that comes to mind.

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playitloud03
03 October 2008 @ 08:17 am

isn't the point of a debate to actually answer the questions?

Just checking :)
 
 
playitloud03
18 September 2008 @ 07:27 am

 

http://www.usmagazine.com/news/brad-pitt-donates-100000-to-fight-gay-marriage-ban

I used to not be a big Brad Pitt fan, I thought he was highly overrated. However, when he started hanging out with George Clooney, started dating Angelina Jolie and showing off his real-guy side I warmed up to him more and more. When he and Angelina released the statement saying that they would not marry until all couples who wanted to could legally marry in this country, I was thoroughly impressed. I think that he and Angelina represent an important part of the fight for full and equal rights for the LGBT community... that is straight people who support these rights and are actively involved in fighting for them. It shows that we aren't all like the narrow minded bigots who want to deprive everyone of these basic rights.

I donate to the HRC and receive their newsletter and I'm sure you've noticed this isn't my first blog about the subject. I've signed about 10 petitions (including the HRC's) to denounce California's proposition 8 and discourage similar ballot measures across the country. Marriage rights and other LGBT issues are at the forefront of all of my political decision making. I argue this issue with all of my conservative co-workers and friends who think that marriage should only be one man and one woman. They always give me a hard time about it because I am not a gay person who puts such a high importance of gay rights. This is the civil rights struggle of our time and I believe that in order to secure a more just future for our children, it needs to be won.
 
 
Current Music: "Almost Home" - Craig Morgan
 
 
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The photo above is from the most despised episode of the Simpsons ever... "The Principal and the Pauper". However, watching the Republican Convention last night, this episode was on the forefront of my brain. In this episode we learn that Principal Skinner is not Seymour Skinner but an orphan named Armin Tamzarian. When he was fighting in Vietnam he idolized his commanding officer, Sgt. Seymour Skinner (voiced by Martin Sheen). When he was told that Sgt. Skinner was killed on a scouting mission, he came back to Springfield and took over Skinner's identity to save Skinner's mother from heartache. 25 years later he comes back to Springfield after being released from the POW camp in Vietnam. They announce to the town that Armin had been living a lie all of these years and make the real Skinner principal of the school again, but everyone hates him. The judge officially gives Armin the identity of Skinner and further decrees that everything should go back to being the way it was. They then proceed to kick the real Skinner out of town.

There are 2 lines from this episode that were almost present at the RNC last night.

When Superintendent Chalmers brings the real Seymour to school  he tells the children "He's a war hero so you have to respect him".

When they are in the process of kicking him out of town and he doesn't want to go, there is the following exchange"

Skinner: "But I'm a hero"

Homer: "And we salute you for it... now don't come back"


Last night's RNC went something like this:

"John McCain is a war hero"
"John McCain was a POW"
"John McCain was tortured"
"John McCain suffered for his country"

I do not in any way disparage Sen. McCain's service to our country but I do not think he should be president simply because he suffered during war. To that end, there are thousands of soldiers from Vietnam and from Iraq and Afghanistan who should be running for president. Does that make him any more important or valuable than those other soldiers?

How is the fact that he was a POW going to help the economy? How is it going to fix our public school system? How is it going to ensure women have equal pay for an equal day's work? How is it going to end our dependence on foreign oil?

I have not heard an actual plan from McCain campaign on any of these things. So yes Senator, I salute you for your service but until you are able to provide workable plans for these things and other important domestic issues, you should not be president.

To paraphrase Homer Simpson: "I salute you for it now please go away"
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playitloud03
27 August 2008 @ 07:41 am
 I am very happy with Hillary's speech last night. She did what she had to do. She did a great job of convincing her supporters that her ideals are more in line with Barack Obama than with John McCain. She reminded democrats that there was a more prosperous time before the Bush administration and that we could have that kind of country again. She did a good job of linking McCain and Bush (the twin cities remark) to make those of us (myself included) who considered voting for McCain realize that it is such a dangerous option.

I do sympathize with angry Hillary supporters because it sucks to work hard and still feel that your voice is not being heard in the electoral process. I said at the very start of the primary that this election would prove that Americans would elect a man of any color before they elect a woman and I was right, unfortunately. It still bothers me that in America in 2008 people have to decide what matters more to them - race or gender. And of course it upsets me that those people choose gender. This is why I laugh when people tell me feminism is outdated. As long as the female voice is not being heard. As long as there is a glass ceiling in business. As long as there is a gender based double standard in society. And as long as women make less for doing the same job, there is a need for feminism. Hillary has become a torch bearer for all women for putting those "18 million cracks in the glass ceiling".

But I digress....

I am excited for Bill Clinton and Joe Biden's speeches tonight.
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playitloud03
25 August 2008 @ 07:26 am
 I was extremely happy to wake up saturday morning and find that Obama picked Joe Biden for VP. In addition to being an early John Edwards supporter, I have also backed Biden. I think he brings the type of experience and personality to balance the ticket and bring me into the Obama camp 100%. There is now absolutely no question in my mind that I will be voting for Obama/Biden in November. He will bring working class credibility to the somewhat snobby Obama campaign.

I was disturbed though by the immediate attack ad put out early saturday morning by the Mccain camp calling into question things Joe Biden said when he was CAMPAIGNING AGAINST BARACK. Does the Mccain camp think Americans are stupid enough to know that a) people change and b) in the process of trying to beat someone in an election, you are going to say some not nice things? During the campaign was Senator Biden supposed to say "while I want your vote, there is nothing wrong with the guy to my left. He's just swell!". I think not.

Aside from politics, I had a pretty good weekend. I think I need to go into a support group for people who are addicted to the PC game Cake Mania. Hung out at a friends place on friday night. I had a bit too much to drink but I didn't feel that bad saturday morning despite the fact that Rob was calling the whole event "Operation Wet Brain" . Hung out at the pool yesterday and went to a nice brunch with Ryan (which we hardly ever do on sundays). All in all not too bad!
 
 
Current Music: "A Little Less Talk" - Toby Keith
 
 
playitloud03
21 August 2008 @ 07:26 am

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/26316235/

For a principal to out and humiliate a gay student, conduct a witch hunt to harass other gay kids or supporters of gay kids and then for the rest of the town to wonder what he did wrong? Oh my God!!! Like I said the other day, I wish someone would have given me the memo when society fell!

Being a teenager is hard enough let alone being a closeted gay teen or a closeted gay teen who is outed in a ridiculous way by a Bible toting lunatic principal who has no business in the public education system. Sorry for the long sentence but damn. What the hell is the matter with people?

I can not imagine what that poor girl must feel. I really would love a Christian to tell me how someone else's homosexuality affects them. It doesn't. All they will say is "well God says it's wrong". And that affects you how? The point should be for these people to do what they think their god wants them to do and leave the rest of us alone. Religion is the cause of all the problems in the world and has been for centuries. Religion is supposed to be a personal thing, it is not supposed to be used as a weapon against others. 

And besides, I would love to follow that principal around with a camera just to see what sins he commits on a daily basis and then air them out for that perfect little bible-belt town to see. Judge not lest ye be judged!

 
 
playitloud03
18 August 2008 @ 04:08 pm

Below is a link to the most disturbing article that I have ever read! 

http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/26182276/



A mother taking an 8 year old girl for a bikini wax!! What the HELL is wrong with these people? Moms who treat young girls like adults, sexualize them and then wonder why they either...

a)  end up in porn

b) get taken in by some pedophile psychopath

c) end up pregnant before they can legally drive


I need to find a blog I posted a long time ago on another site about a place that is equal to the 7th circle of Hell, a place called Club Libby Lu. Club Libby Lu is a place aimed at girls ages 7 to 9 where they have makeover parties. These young girls get full makeovers and model suggestive clothing all while smiling parents take pictures. At our local Club Libby Lu, located at Tysons Corner Mall, on any given day you'll find grown men with no children in tow standing outside Club Libby Lu gawking at 8 year old girls. Absolutely disgusting! Are parents upset about this place? Nope! As a matter of fact there was a big hubbub about 2 years ago. A huge crowd of the concerned moms of Northern Virginia were picketing Tysons Corner mall. Were they protesting the exploitation of young girls that occurs every day at club libby lu? Nope. They were protesting the new Victoria's Secret store and its "suggestive" mannequins. Excuse me. Are we talking about a store aimed at adults being more damaging to young girls than a store that teaches them they need to be a Paris Hilton clone before the 3rd grade? Give me a break.

I think the parents of America need to get their heads out of their asses and focus on what is really important when raising their children (please see my recent rant against the FCC). I will never know when my daughter gets a bikini wax because she will not be 8 she will be 18! She will also never set foot in a club libby lu. She will experience childhood. She will not play with Bratz dolls. She will learn that her value as a person does not lie in the clothes or makeup she wears but in the person she is inside. Maybe if some of these parents learned that at a young age they wouldn't be turning their 9 year olds into party dolls.

 
 
playitloud03
12 August 2008 @ 07:13 am

I've been wanting to write this entry for a few days so here it goes...


I am engaging in a personal boycott of this year's OlympicS strictly on the basis of the host country. China has the world's worst human rights and environmental records and yet is being applauded for it's ability to put on a pretty pageant. It is so difficult for me to watch this farce on a global scale when you think about the following atrocities:

1. The brutalization of peaceful tibetan monks (these are people who won't step on an insect)

2. Calling the Dali Llama a "terrorist"

3. Ruling your own people with an iron fist (who needs free speech?)

4. Supporting the Sudanese government with money and weapons while hundreds of people are raped and murdered every day in Darfur

5. Support of the evil, bloodthirsty dictator in Zimbabwe, "President" (and I use the term loosely) Mugabe

I watched about 10 minutes of the games over the weekend so Ryan could watch swimming. It was a very enlightening (and puzzling) few minutes. Bob Costas was talking about the unison in which the chinese seem to do things and how "everything there stresses the unity of the people not the individual". Of course, Bob, it's called COMMUNISM... LOOK IT UP!!!

Knowing what we know about the Chinese government and still blissfully enjoying the "pretty colors and shiny things" is disgusting. The media should be ashamed of themselves. I compare it on a much smaller scale to the fact that once you know Bing Crosby was an alcoholic who abused his wife and kids, you just can't enjoy "White Christmas" like you used to. 

So here is my proposition for the 2012 games. If we're going to spend 2 weeks engaged in the worship of an awful, repressive regime every 4 years then the 2012 games should be relocated from London to Tehran. Let's have the media try to find the happy side of the certifiably insane leader of Iran. The swimming and gymnastics competitions will be fun to watch when the women have to wear veils. And we can introduce new competitions like synchronized beheadings and competitive flag burning. Maybe Kim Jong Il can carry the torch. 

Wow... maybe I should run the IOC?

 

 
 
playitloud03
21 July 2008 @ 01:38 pm
 Thank goodness that a federal appeals court has reversed the $550,000 fine against CBS for the brief glimpse of Janet Jackson's breast during the 2004 super bowl.

It is so ridiculous that thanks to the religious right we have the FCC watchdog telling us what is and isn't indecent and doing the parenting for us. If you have a problem with what you might see on network television... DON'T WATCH IT! If you are worried about what your children are seeing then DON'T LET THEM WATCH TV OR CHOOSE WHAT THEY WATCH!

It is a waste of tax dollars and government time to police television and radio for curse words and nudity. It is also an insult to the intelligence of the american adult consumer that we need someone telling us what we should and should not be able to see on network airwaves.

Ok. I'm done!
 
 
Current Music: "Everyday America" - Sugarland
 
 
playitloud03
18 July 2008 @ 06:23 pm
 http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/25736678/


They call themselves the "nerd girls" and are amazing role models. They are the anti-Michelle Obama militant style of feminism. They teach girls that you can be into star wars, computers, shopping and getting your nails done at the same time. Quirkiness and sexiness are not mutually exclusive.

As shallow as it may sound, the thing that makes them the best role models is that they are gorgeous. Brainy women can be sexy and sexy women can be smart.
  
 
 
playitloud03
11 July 2008 @ 07:05 am

My life changed forever 5 years ago today! July 11th is my annual day of contemplation because of the monumental events that occurred 5 years ago. 

Most of you know that when I was 5, my parents walked out on me and I was sent to live with mentally and emotionally abusive relatives. During my childhood and adolescence, I was tortured almost daily by my screwed up family who made me pay for their mistakes and their failures. Despite being an honor student who played violin, took ballet, was active in every school activity possible and never got in trouble, I was told daily that I was an utter failure who would never be a success and would end up "being a whore like my mom or a drug addict like my dad". They would tell me whenever I did anything they didn't like that they wished they had never taken me in and that I had to worship them because "without us you'd be living under an overpass somewhere" (because that is soooo healthy to tell an 11 year old).

I could go on for days listing every terrible thing they did to me for 13 years, but that is NOT what today is about. Today is about ME. 5 years ago my best friend Chris and I were having our usual "Chris and Catherine tuesday" (driving around and enjoying sheer randomness) when he came out to me. We drove around for 6 hours just talking and enjoying the moment. I came home, slept for a couple hours and went to work my awful fast food job. When I came home and took a nap, my unemployed criminal of an uncle woke me up, said I was lazy and proceeded to berate me with insults. For years, I had been so meek and indecisive because of their abuse. I didn't think I was worth more than what they told me. I also knew better in my heart, I always knew I was smart and a good person who would have the life that I wanted - I just could never believe it. 

In that moment of him saying those things to me, I just snapped and decided that I didn't have to take it anymore. I moved out the next day and I have never looked back. The only communication I have had with them is his attempts to get back into my head with his mind games.

I am not the person I was 5 years ago! I am stronger, more decisive and I take a lot more pride in who I am. I celebrate the things that make me special, celebrate my faults and rejoice in the things that make me different from everyone else. I am a success at work, I have a husband who loves me, great friends who accept me for who I am and most importantly... a life of my choosing. No it's not perfect and no things didn't turn out exactly according to plan but I wouldn't trade the last 5 years for anything in the world!

*A special note for Chris - no matter what happens in our friendship, I will always treasure the memories we made that summer. If I had to go through all of that, I am so grateful that I went through it with you at my side.

 
 
Current Mood: contemplative
 
 
playitloud03
08 July 2008 @ 07:35 am
 I can't access myspace here at work anymore because of a new firewall. This weekend at my in-laws' was the first time I had been on myspace in months. I have been excited for weeks about the upcoming 5 year anniversary of July 11th (for those of you who haven't heard this one, there will be a much more detailed blog on friday) so of course my psycho uncle had to rain on my parade.

Apparently in April he tracked me down on myspace and left me a message without reading the rest of my profile. The message was just to tell me that my beloved dog moose died last august (which I expected because Bull Mastiffs do not live past the age of 10) and that my great aunt Helen had died in April (yet again, not surprised because she was 88 years old... wow that sounds cold but oh well).

So after he left the friendly message, he read the rest of my profile and found my blog from last July 11th in which I told the whole story. My family's emotional abuse, his indictment for credit card fraud and their theft of my identity. It is no big secret because if you go to our local fox affiliate's website you can still find their investigation of him and his business, and all I have to do is show you the crap I went through with the credit bureaus to fix it after he bought an SUV using my identity in 2004. 

So he didn't like what he found and sent a scathing message in which he told me that he wishes they had never taken me in when my parents "kicked me to the curb" and that I'm a "lying drama queen with mental health issues" (I'd say it definitely takes one to know one). At first I was upset because he always knows what buttons to press to make me doubt myself. I do realize now that he just re-affirmed everything I put into that blog and re-affirmed my decision to have nothing to do with them for the last 5 years. I'm not ashamed of what I wrote though because every word of it is the truth. If he didn't want to be branded as a controlling, abusive sociopath who commits crimes then he shouldn't have chosen to live his life that way.

After all, HE is the one who tried to track ME down.... not the other way around.
 
 
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27 June 2008 @ 04:22 pm

I decided after reading a similar post on my friend Chris' live journal that I would write a little "about me" entry.

My name is Catherine. I'm 23, married and I work as an accounts receivable administrator for the Sterling, VA office of the world's largest property restoration firm. I never thought accounting would make happy, especially since the only subject I was never good at was math but the opportunity fell into my lap and I love it. My favorite friends in the entire world are my co-workers. 

I love listening to music but my favorite is Country. I love poetry and I used to write a little of it as well. I suppose that is the reason I like country music. It has amazing lyrical content that tells true stories about real life. One of my favorite quotations that sums it up is from country legend Harlan Howard "Country music is three chords and the truth". I also love dance and drama (I am active in local community theatre). I am die-hard Simpsons fan and total Simpsons trivia nerd. I am also a reality show whore, I love them despite the fact that they very well may be the end of western civilization. I also love watching sports. I love the Dallas Cowboys, Tony Stewart and University of Maryland basketball (FEAR THE TURTLE!). 

I am very politically and socially conscious. I am a democrat through and through. I briefly contemplated voting for John McCain but I have recently come back to reality. I am a third wave feminist, an environmentalist and I am very supportive of GLBT rights. I am admittedly not the most foreign policy literate person but I am very involved and educated on domestic policy. Education, rights for women, rights for gays, crime and freedom of speech and expression are the issues that determine how I vote and are the subjects that I am most passionate about.

I consider myself an agnostic. My friend Tom says that just means I am an atheist who can't commit but I do believe in spiritual things and I believe that there may be a higher power out there. The concept of karma is what guides my actions and beliefs for the most part. I have serious dislike for the Christian right who seem to have an insane amount of power in this country. They are a paranoid, hateful and contradictory lot who I think should be treated for mental illness. 

I had a rough childhood but I am working through it and I use it for strength. I know that I can get through any struggle and that I am a survivor.

So that is pretty much me in a nutshell. If there is anything else you ever what to know or know more about just ask!

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Current Music: "Piece of Me" - Britney Spears
 
 
playitloud03
17 June 2008 @ 07:07 am
 I'm so happy that even if only temporary, gay marriages are legal in California. I wish the other 48 states would get their act together. Of course that will never happen because of the power and paranoia of the Christian right. I think all of these crazy Christian nut jobs need to take a lesson from their own book "judge not lest ye be judged". The passage that most of these whack nuts use to condemn homosexuality as an "abomination" is the same passage that says you should wear two kinds of fabric in your clothes at the same time and that you shouldn't eat shellfish. I know that I have mentioned that part of it before but it just pisses me off that they can be so selective in the logic they use. 

They say that gay marriage will destroy traditional society and the family. Most of my straight friends have been through at least one divorce (2 of my closest friends have been through 2 divorces!) Yet I and we as a society don't judge them. The 1st couple to be married yesterday have been together for 55 years! George Takei from Star Trek and his partner who plan to get married in September have been together for 21 years. I read another article the other day that if all 18 states with bans on gay adoption would lift those, we would reduce the number of children in the foster care system by 65%. That would be 65% more children with happy, loving families (who just happen to be gay or lesbian). What do you think is better for the American family?

I just wish I knew what exactly the Christian right was afraid of? Are they afraid that giving gay men the right to commit to lasting, loving, legal partnerships would give gay men free reign to rape them while they sleep? Or that lesbians will somehow steal their wives? Sounds ridiculous but that seems to be their mentality. Their only driving force is fear. And that's funny.... because I thought Christianity was the religion of hope. My bad!
 
 
playitloud03
04 June 2008 @ 12:15 pm
Although I am sad that Hillary will not be the nominee, I am actually more excited than I thought about the possibility of an Obama/Clinton ticket. I think that it would be the best thing to unite the democratic party and would be almost unbeatable come November. I mourn for the chance to have Hillary or John Edwards in the white house but the so-called "dream ticket" is beginning to look more and more appealing. 

A quick note on the diet front. My weight loss is going slow and steady, which is a good thing. This diet (unlike any I have ever been on) is teaching me patience and healthier eating habits. So even though I am not losing weight quite as fast as I wanted (I am down 7 pounds) I am still very happy with myself.
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29 May 2008 @ 10:58 am

If I read one more story that has Dina McGreevy (wife of the former New Jersey governor) whining about something else, I'm going to go nuts. That woman is insane. It was one thing to whine incessantly about how you were "deceived" by your closeted gay husband but the things she is whining about now give me a headache:
          *Agreeing to live at the governor's mansion even though their condo was 40 minutes closer to her job
          *Having to foot the bill for her wedding
          *Having to squeeze in room at the wedding for 40 political allies of your husband's.

Does she not understand that these things happen to most couples? Does she not understand that items 1 and 3 are called "compromise"? Does she not understand that traditionally the bride's family does foot the bill for wedding? Even though I believe that you are born gay and do not choose it, listening to this dumb, selfish, crybaby makes me think anyone would turn gay just to get away from her dumb ass. And with that attitude almost any straight husband would have an affair because she is nuts. I will be so happy when this divorce trial is over and the media stops paying attention to her "poor little me" rants. She can just go away and no one will care anymore.

 
 
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27 May 2008 @ 07:28 am
 I lost 2 more pounds so I'm down to 139. I have this tank top from express that I absolutely love. For the first time in a year I can wear it and not look like a pregnant woman. I wore it on sunday and didn't want to take it off. 

Ryan bought me a cute pair of shoes and an ankle bracelet to make up for the rough week we had last week. It doesn't make up for it but it does show that he is trying. We have a family of baby birds living on the lamp post right outside our door. I am so enamored watching their tiny beaks reach up out of the nest searching for mama when she goes to find food. Ryan says it's a sign that we need to start a family. After what we've been going through lately, I am in no hurry to move that date up. We are going to start trying in January. I know it's a little harsh but I don't want to bring children into any type of shaky situation. I don't want my children to experience anything remotely close to my childhood. 

We didn't really do anything for memorial day but spend time together. We had breakfast in bed yesterday morning which was really nice.

Work will be busy today and tomorrow with month end. I found out on friday that a very close friend of mine here at work is leaving on June 6th. I am so sad about it because he was the 1st person to go out of their way to welcome me when I first started here. On the plus side, I might get his office, which is much bigger than mine. *fingers crossed*
 
 
 
 

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